Sometimes I think folks I know truly forget that at times. Like a lot of people take advantage of how good of a person I am, I feel @ times. Not so much on purpose, but it happens. Once, an old friend asked me how do I stay so positive through all the things I've been through in life (especially in the pass few years), and I said I don't know. Other than the grace of god, and trying to stay surrounded by positive people. Sometime I think people forget that I'm human as well. Like I try to be good to most people. I respect everyone, and try not to really hurt anyone (on purpose). I feel like @ times I try to always be that super friend, super son, super boyfriend, super brother and etc. But some days I get tired too. Some day's I like for people to just ask me how am I doing. Talk to me. Put some effort in the relationship we have. Something other than draining me like I'm not a person just like you. I get tired of putting my wagon to the side to help others pull theirs, and when its time for me to pull mines, after being tired from lending my hand out all day I see everyone heading forward forgetting about me. Not in a mean way. Its like Oh that's Deonte` he can do anything so I don't have to worry about him. He's a solider. And that may be true, but every solider needs a support system. Not saying I don't have that, because lord knows I do. But all I ask is for people to sometimes recognize when your friend, son, boyfriend, brother, or whatever I may mean to you is not having a good day. It's not always something serious going on. Sometimes I just may need a talk, or a hug. At times I would like for you to just initiate some things, instead of waiting for me to do them. Just like I do for you in your time of need. Its just the simplest things that may make me happy. Like people say to me all the time, "I haven't seen you in months, or heard from you." And I'm like, well it works both ways. See people get too comfortable, and forget it takes two, to make things work in any kind of relationship. And I'm not talking about no on in particular in this post. Just how I been feeling lately. I just mention the labels (son, boyfriend, friend, brother & etc.) Because that's what I am. I love the people around me so much, and appreciate them all. They have been here for me, and helped me through a lot. And I'm totally thankful for that. All I ask is that it don't just stop there. Some days I hurt just like you. I have issues just like you. I cry just like you. I have battles just like you. Most importantly I love myself just like all you do & need you all just like you all need me. I know I'm always smiling, and seem full of energy, but some days behind that is a wounded person, that's just like you.... HUMAN. Thanks for reading.... I know I don't always do blogs like this, but I had to get this off my chest... enjoy the rest of your day.
I was listening to my Ipod on the train today coming home from work, and this song came on. I never heard it before until now, and I loved it. So I wanted to share it with you guys. He sounds like Anthony Hamilton to me (in some parts of the song), but it's a guy by the name of John Rich from the Randy Jackson's Music Club: Volume One CD ... ;)
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