Yesterday I reacted towards something my brother did to me on my Facebook page. I feel as though I reacted out of anger and rage, because of the type of things he said to me. My blog to me is very therapeutic. Every since 2005 (when I was a blogger on yahoo 360) I've vented, and expressed my feelings how I wanted. But what I didn't think about this time or realize, is my audience has truly expanded. So when I wrote my blog entry about disowning my brother, it was straight up out of anger, and being upset at how he feels about who I am. I still feel he was wrong, but I also feel so was I, in the way I handled it. I will take responsibility for my actions. I didn't do the blog to embarrass him in no type of way. If anything I embarrassed myself. And the reason I say that is, I do love my brother. I care for him a lot. He means a lot to me. I wished we had a better relationship. He will probably never understand how it is to be something you didn't choose to be. And to also be something he ultimately hates. All I know is he is my brother, and I will never give up on him. Yes he needs to learn how to respect me, as well as my public sites, and not be so vulgar towards things he don't get or understand. But when he's ready to talk to me he will know where to find me. Maybe one day we can get back to how we used to be in this photo. If not, the one thing he can't ever change is I'm his older GAY brother. Accept it and deal with it or don't. Either way I still love him the same, no matter what I said yesterday. Goodnite!